this is the scariest thing i've ever done, me being as honest as i can about my weight.
MONTH ONE
170 lbs
BMI 31 : Obese
i can't believe that i am blogging about my weight! as it is something that have been in denial about for a LONG time. when i talk about my weight with my friends they say "you just had a baby" well i had a baby eight months ago and although i am happy to say that i've lost all that weight, i am no where near what my weight NEEDS to be. so i'm sure you're asking why in the world would she would be talking about this, well i have to change my life. NO, I have to SAVE my LIFE for my girls. and for me i feel like blogging about it is my way of holding myself accountable for this life changing event.
How Did I Get Here?
I'm not going to lie... i ate my way here! when my mom died nine years ago i weighted 120 and i was 20 years old, now i'm 29 and i weight 170.. food became my comfort and it feels like i blinked and gained 50 pounds.
My Goal
to get healthy.... it's not even about the weight i just want to be here for my kids as long as i can. of course i could still die from a heart attack, it's genetic, but i can control what i eat and i can exercise. it took me 9 years to get here and i want to be realistic, i KNOW it's not going to come off easily, but i'm going to start slow and work hard. starting with exercising five days a week for 20 mins. and the biggest thing i'm going to change starting today is no more french fries or coke-a-cola! so every month i'm going to post these lovely pictures of myself in hopes that i will show some progress.
So if anyone is reading this please write something to support me because this is going to be not only phyically hard, but i am going to have to deal with my emotional eating and that is going to be where i struggle the most.
Yeah, Jennifer! I'm so proud of you!!! Yes, it is terrifying to blog about your real self. You know I let it all hang out on my blog. (Well, I let a lot of it hang out!) We ALL deal with our emotional issues in different ways. I absolutely know how you got there. If I hadn't had the kids 9 years ago I probably would have crawled in bed for a long time. Oh, and you needed me a little bit! I guess I felt I didn't have a choice because people needed me. That's how I got through. But I've eaten my way through many a crisis before!
ReplyDeleteI know you want to live for your girls and you worry about that. We have to work on the things that we can control and let go of the others. I'm really struggling with that. I know if I'd exercise more and eat better I'd feel better. So...starting tomorrow.....ha! JK
I'm proud of you and love you like my own daughter. Though if you screw up, I don't have to claim you! But that works in reverse, too. I will get you for laughing at my "senior citizen" Harris Teeter joke! JK
Jen - I know that you can do it because you are one of the most determined people I know! Just take it day by day and before you know it, your workouts will be a habit and you can slowly increase your time.
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