we are silly playing around with my mac's photo booth
every time i hear this song by Martina McBride i think of madison. i believe that i was pregnant with her when this song came out and it always made me very emotional.
In My Daughter's Eyes : Martina McBride
In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes
And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes
In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes
she's my first born.. need i say more. she is ME and she drives me crazy!! that's such a scary thought, but my mother claimed i would have one just like me. i won't wish that on either of my girls. LOL Having children make you realize who you are. i've gone though alot in the last five years and no matter what happens to me (my slumps) madison is always there, she will always be my daughter. I am honored that God gave her too me.. she is a beautiful gift!! i love when she looks into my eyes and pulls my hair. she's so big now, it's difficult for me to continue to rock her in the glider (not to mention she won't sit still)
I am grateful for her b/c she makes me want to be better, she makes me work really HARD but it's all worth it. Madison and I've had a difficult two days, so it's probably a good thing that i have to right down why i am grateful for her. she tests my patients everyday!! I am grateful for her kind heart, she has these moments when she's cuddling with me when she looks and me with so much love and i don't want it to end. i am grateful to be able to have the opportunity to have children. there are so many women who want children so badly and here i am complaining on days b/c i can't deal with her. But I couldn't LIVE without her.. i can't image my life without my talkative, outgoing, little 5 year old with blond curly hair and blue eyes.
I always knew that i wanted to be a mother and i get to have that opportunity to do that everyday. some days i stress about NOT having a job, a paying job, but i do believe that being at home with my girls is the place i'm suppose to be right now. maybe he'll change that later but i'm trying to embrace my role as a stay at home mom and being a good one at that. learning how to be a Godly mother and teach madison and emma about God.
I am grateful for my madison for one main reason.... she's mine (even though i know she's only on loan to me while here on earth) i will always be grateful that she is apart of my life and i love her so much. parenting is not an easy job, but i believe love is. it's easy to fall in love with madison, from the moment i first felt her kick, till i saw her on the ultrasound, till she was laying on my belly only moments after she was born, and now i look forward to all the NEXT moments (memories) that i will cherish and be grateful because she is making my life better. I look forward to every one of her birthdays b/c i know that i've had one more year with her... to watch her change and grow. it goes by so quickly and at any moment if it's is God's will for her, she can be taken from me.
my prayer
Lord, I pray that i continue to be grateful for Madison, and be delighting in the little things that she does. I promise to raise her to know you and to trust you with all her heart. I promise to show her how to be a Godly wife, mother and person. I promise to continue to pray for her and with her. I know that you have a plan for her life and I promise to help guide her with the knowledge that the Bible offers. Thank you Lord for Madison, my beautiful, health, happy little girl. You are an Awesome God!!
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