I'd like to think that i had something to do with the fact that my girls love each other so much. Even tonight and all week they have slept side by side! so cute snuggling together. (i'll post a picture later). I'd like to think that since i love and kiss on them all the time that's why they are so lovable to one another. i guess i just need a boost of mom praise.. i'm struggling with mommy guilt... i'm not doing enough, i can't get in the floor and play with them like i normally could, i'm tired all the time, they are living off of mac and cheese and chicken nuggets.....
and i know i'm a good mom... at least the best mom i know how to be! but sometimes it feels like i never do enough, am never there enough, never hug and kiss enough, never read enough.... and so on! sometime people in my life make me feel that i'm just not good enough, that i'm going to have a hard time with 3 kids, or even make me feel like i shouldn't have had 3 kids. Emma's going to be the "middle child" you know what that means? NO i really don't, i was an ONLY child!!!! and i'm going to love Emma just as much as the others......
Sorry i'm ranting.. just feeling a bit overwhelmed with only 4 (lets hope less) weeks to go.
i had this exact same mommy guilt when i was pregnant with emma. so worried about madison, and how she would handle having to share me. and you know sometimes she has a hard time. but i know she knows I LOVE HER!! k, i'm crying now!!
This pregnancy has been a heck of an emotional roller coaster!!
You can repeat this to me in a few years when I am going through the same thing, but of course you are going to love all your children enough and as much as possible. The thing you are forgetting by the end of in this post is the gift you are giving your children of siblings. There is such a special relationship (I wish you would have experienced it). So maybe the "time" you won't be able to give them individually is less than you had wanted, but it will be replaced with sibling time and love and there is nothing wrong with that! You are a wonderful mother look how those girls love each other that is because of you.
ReplyDeleteYou have a huge impact on your girls. You know how I feel about all that. You should just be encouraged that they love each other and know that each child has a role in their family that will help them develop into a future adult. Plant God's word and love in their heart and you will be fine. Trust that God has a plan and that you WILL get through this pregnancy! Love you.
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